Oct 31st – The Haunting of Harold Hemmings

October 31st – The Haunting Of Harold Hemmings

Harold Hemmings hated Halloween.

To be fair, he hated a lot of things, but Halloween always seemed the worst. American, he used to say, whenever the subject came up. ‘American nonsense’, or something stronger, depending on who he was taking to. Harold Hemmings didn’t talk to too many people, and even fewer wanted to talk to him.

If he had anywhere to go, Harold Hemmings would have gone out, but he didn’t have anywhere to go, and he wasn’t going to walk the streets, so he was in, alone, sitting in his armchair in front to the television, on Halloween. The only light was the light in the back room. The rest of the house was in darkness. Harold Hemmings wasn’t going to open the door.

As the night drew on, he remained untroubled. No one knocked on his already darkened door. ‘Trick or Treat’ was unheard. Harold Hemmings relaxed a little into his chair.

One thump on the door. Slow, and heavy, and hard: a large hand.

Harold Hemmings ignored it.

Another. Slow, and heavy, and hard. And then another.

Harold Hemmings ignored them both.

Another. And another. And another, louder, growing in intensity.

Harold Hemmings had had enough. He got out of his chair and stormed to the front door, fully intending to give whoever was disturbing him a piece of his mind.

In front of a flickering fire, Harold Hemmings’s armchair grew slowly colder. The front door swung loosely on its hinges. The street was quiet, and dark, and cold.

And the street was empty.

The Haunting of Harold Hemmings

He wouldn’t let it lie. He could have let it lie, but he wouldn’t let it lie.

He should have let it lie. He might have let it lie, but he didn’t let it lie.

A scab. A scab that was spread over the inflamed, red, angry, soft flesh of skin knitting to skin, the magic of invisible antibodies and plasma and reconstructing cells building walls and carrying on their pre-programmed business, beavering away. The temperature of the area of flesh was heightened, betraying the furious action going on underneath, the itch another symptom as the nerves transferred to the brain the knowledge of furious action, repairing and fixing and mending. Things were being made better, beneath the surface. But on the surface, it was a scab. An ugly scab, yellow and brown and dry blood black and even, around the edge, a hint of pustulous green. Its surface was uneven, misshapen and irregular. It sat over the healing, a mockery of the fine and natural processes going on underneath. And it was strangely stiff, unyielding like a carapace, but this was unnatural. The very fact that the scab was hard and nasty meant that it could not flex with the skin beneath, and this mismatch was what made it irresistable to the touch.

Time and again his hand went back to the scab, picking it, rubbing it, moving it from side to side and feeling the unpleasant hot itch-pain of the tug on the damage that was hidden.

He wouldn’t let it lie.

 

The Haunting of Harold Hemmings

To write for exactly, and only, ten minutes every day, as exercise. Helped by daily prompts by “M“. Today I wrote from 14:02 to 14:12 with the prompt …..

The Haunting of Harold Hemmings

Waking up again. Another morning, another day. The initial trained burst of optimism, “Today will be good; I will have a good day” is soon gone; evaporated quicker than the purest alcohol, the alcohol Harold has eschewed now for so many years.

Thoughts. The thoughts come.

He lets one or two in, I can handle these, I can think about this, surely? After all this time. And briefly he feels he can. By the time his feet are on the floor, however, he is licking over these painful thoughts as one might flick one’s tongue against a rotten tooth; yes the pain is still there.

In the shower it is all he can think of. “Why? Why? Why?” a million times the same questions, the same hard rock of the same answers, the same circle.

Harold Hemmings cannot recall the taste of morning tea without fresh tears in it. By the time he leaves the house he is on the floor. His head is stretching to hold all these circular never-ending miseries in them. Time will help, yet his haunted head continues to ache and burst at the seams as he never can seem to lay these things to rest. He never can exorcise the disappointments, the humiliations, the pain and the despair.

Finally at the end of the day – a good day, his brain was only on fire for most of it – he takes his pills and he can sleep. The haunting nightmares will not begin again until morning.

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The Brink of the Link

At the Brink of The Link

He had been making his way slowly all day. Anyone watching might have thought that he was stationary, so slow was his progress. The weather was that “inside a cloud” level of general Lakeland moistness that would probably show up as ‘95% humidity’ on the Met Office website, and although it wasn’t exactly raining, or even drizzling, there was no doubt that he had become absolutely sopping, wringing wet.

His equipment was top notch, reflecting hours spent over winter evenings checking YouTube reviews of different brands, all with the same arse-clenchingly annoying music behind them, as people with the charisma of a ‘salesman of the month from a very small region of the country for a very large retail chain’ talked through the pros and cons of different items, always addressing the viewer as ‘guys’, with that weird not-really-mid-Atlantic-but-what-do-you-call-bland-tv-americanisms voice, with ubiquitous Australian Question Intonation? At the end of the sentences?

Anyway, the gear was the best he could find. He always held out some hope that the promises of at least a small branch of capitalism might hold some water. Literally, in the case of his Goretex (TM) jacket. And yet, with the effort that he had put into the morning’s ascent, sweat had poured from him and filled the jacket, condensing and running back down his sleeves to soak his technical under-layers. Wick as they might, wicketty-woo as they were, they were drenched. But now, he had another problem.

The sweat was pouring from him in torrents, and he was clinging from his fingertips at full extension, his feet similarly on a tiny ledge below him. His harness should theoretically keep him safe, as his line was clipped through a piece of safety off to the left, but he had been unable to make any further progress. And now, he could see that the rope was hanging in the gate of the carabiner, unable to take the weight of his fall.

AT THE BRINK OF THE LINK-30th October 1:45 – 1:55

My blood was pumping,                                              My heart was thumping,                                           I didn’t know what to do,                                          and I really needed a poo,                                          time was running out,                                                 oh, the things I was thinking about,                          I had 60 seconds to live,                                               my life was a real bizz,                                                   at the brink of the link.

Oct 30th – At the Brink of the Link

Oct 30th – At the Brink of the Link

12.08-12.18

Daphne was due to give birth. And she was worried. As much as she could be, not having much concept of the idea of ‘worry’, but she was about as worried as she could be, given the circumstances.

If she was still alive, Daphne would be roughly 2.1 million years old. But she isn’t, so there’s nothing really to worry about on that score. And it’s also highly unlikely that ‘Daphne’ was her real name, or that she had any concept of names, either. But we’ll call her Daphne, just to make it easier.

Daphne was an Australopithecus. And Daphne was worried.

If she had any concept of time, Daphne would have known that it was about 8 months ago that the strange one came into their territory. The strange one, with his strange looks and his strange fur and his strange way of smiling that caught her eye.

He led, and she followed. And about 8 months later, here she is.

The others know what’s happening, even if they don’t know about the strange one’s role in all of this. He didn’t last long, the strange one. He was just a bit, well…strange. They’d driven him off with stones, and wood, and they never saw him again.

If Daphne knew about contractions, she’d know they were starting. She knew something was starting, but she had not given birth before, so this was all new. The others knew, though. The other females were around, and the children were excited, and the males… Well, the males were just being males. They knew their place.

Daphne sat down for a while, then walked around, then sat again. She could feel it moving inside her, feel it wanting to come out. Her child. Her first.

What Daphne didn’t know, what none of them knew, was that Daphne’s child wasn’t going to be like them. Because Daphne’s child was not Australopithecus, like them, but something very different. In a little under half an hour’s time, Daphne was going to give birth to the first, the very first, Homo Habilis.

Daphne stood at the brink of The Link.

At The Brink Of The Link

To write for exactly, and only, ten minutes every day, as exercise. Helped by daily prompts by “M“. I wrote from 09:54 to 10:04 and today’s prompt is…..

At The Brink Of The Link

It was a strange time, I sometimes can’t quite believe I did it. of course I’m delighted I did, I wish I could remember how I was back then, who I was. It seems so unlike me now to decide to do that, and to do it.

But I did, and for some decades it appeared to be the best decision I ever made. Off I went, a bit into the unknown, but I guess I did know, we knew, and it worked. It worked so well, for so long, so many years. But still I wish I could recapture that sense, that strength, that spirit I had as I stood, all those years ago, at the beginning, just that step I needed at the brink of a link.

I took it and built that first link, and between us we built another and another, yet more links, a long continuous chain, a chain so strong it was unbreakable. The chain of my life, all I had to show for so many years, all I wanted to have from life. And in my mind’s eye yet more links stretching forever into the future. A long unbroken chain.

But it seems the more recent links have been weaker, I didn’t see it, in my foolish way, looking far back along the chain I can also see so many old links have begun to rust, have rusted even. what happened to our beautiful, essential, inevitable, endless chain?

And now here I sit; once more at the brink of a link.

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Oct 29th – Clinky and Clanky

11.15 – 11.25

October 29th– Clinky and Clanky

She named them for the sound they made
when they walked: first a clink,
like loose change, or a light chain
unwinding.

The second was harsher, severe
almost, a clank of mistimed gears
or a cutlery drawer, shaken,
upsetting the spoons.

They kept her company, through the days
when people were in short supply
and the words that her mouth formed
were strangers.

She would sit on the floor, in darkness,
in semi-darkness, and in the hours
when the sun made stripes of shadows
and dissolved the ambiguities of corners,

and tell them stories, wordlessly,
in which they were actors,
uncomplaining, pushed across surfaces
and turned into parts

of something bigger than they were.
Their sounds were dialogue;
pain, joy, hope, despair,
their shapes danced to her touch.

As she grew, and the language
society demanded made strange
shapes of her mouth, and moulded
her thoughts, they moved less

through the narratives of her days,
and dust fell where her fingers left
no mark. She taught herself to fit,
to evolve, to do the things

they told her were right,
and in a corner of a lonely room,
the things that once were everything
sit still.

Daily prompts  from Putting My Feet In The Dirt 

Clinky and Clanky 29th October

Clinky and Clanky were twin robots they did everything together like eating, sleeping and they even lived together. Until one day a toy  maker  came to the house and the owner sold Clanky to the toy maker. 10 years later they had not forgotten each other. Clinky had a much better life than Clanky he was fed well and got enough sleep but Clanky (the one sold to the toy maker) didn’t he was put on a shelf and forgotten.

About 10 years later they had got on with their lives and forgotten about each other until one day a girl walked into a toy shop and said “Can I have him please?” and bought him. When she got home she said “Grandfather, grandfather look what I got it looks exactly like yours.” Yep it was Clanky the twin’s eyes lit up because they were reunited.

The end

Daily prompts  from Putting My Feet In The Dirt Today I wrote from 08:16 to 08:26 and was prompted by the words Clinky and Clanky

Clinky and Clanky – 29th October

A silent internal pinch of her brain was all she would allow herself when she heard. Then a slight nod and she turned and walked down the stairs to an oblivion all too known and all too real.

Led through the corridors, seemingly endless, on and on she was taken.

Her thoughts were calm. She was forcing this calm, all too aware that she had time, the only thing she had was time. So much time ahead of her to fill. And all she could fill it with were thoughts.

She was – would be for as long as she could imagine – lonely; she was scared; she was outraged.

All in vain, there was no hope, no turning back. All roads explored and all cul-de-sacs.

She faced her fate.

The chains around her limbs were heavy and noisy. She was inside the vehicle now moving rapidly, but still the only noise she registered was the clanking of the chains, of the wheels, of the axles, everything seemed to mirror the awful clanking of her chains.

Arriving she was led out, even the slightest movement caused her to clank, and all around was yet more clanking. It came from the big bunch of keys, from the door and above all from all the other chained people, hundreds of them all around her as she entered The Clink.

A half smile crossed her face fleetingly before it returned to the empty bleak stare she felt she and been wearing for years

Now I know, she had thought, now I know what it is to be in The Clink; to be ‘clinky’. It is clanky.

Daily prompts  from Putting My Feet In The Dirt Today I wrote from 08:16 to 08:26

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